when i noe my jae was unsuccessful... i was abit sad.... i tot of wat other school i can get in.... when i told my mother abt my plan she was ok.... but when the day for me to go to the school to appeal she objected... on the day itself.... when i was already waiting for the bus, she told me no!!!! wat the hell she is thinking.... i told her so many times before going to apeal.... she did not say a single thing... i was so angry with it... nowadays she keep scolding me say i nv work hard la.... then did so badly for it.... when i was working hard she did not say anything... but once i did badly she scold until siao.... everytime when i got gd result i tot they will buy me something as a reward or treat me something gd like they promised me.... they didnt keep their promise... i noe they cant afford i dun blame them but not a single praise i received from them... in my past memorise i onli rmb how i was being beaten by my mother because of my result... i work very hard since then in order not to get beaten by my mother... but why is it the more i work hard for it the worst the result is... y??? i dun understand.... it is not tat i didnt put in effort... i noe myself i will not say i work very hard if i onli put in a little effort.... i am very true to myself cos... i reflect on everything i do.... so i really dun get it...

haiz... this friday is gd friday... i dun wish for tat day to come... cos my relative will ask me how was my appeal.... i had enough ppl asking me the same qns.... i dun wan to say anything abt it anymore... my show starting gtg liao...