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2007-03-10T16:22:00.000+08:00

hi ppl i have change my blog long ago, it case u did not noe abt it.... here is my new blog add: http://www.wretch.cc/blog/crypiggy pls link me to ur blog thank...

2007-01-01T21:40:00.000+08:00

i was at my cousin hse warming... one of them saw the rainbow... and i attracted to see...

if u see carefully u will be able to see that there are two rainbow.... one of it is of a lighter colour... haha...

i had seen the rainbow quite a couple of time.... but this is the first time i saw two at the same time... furthermore today is the first day of 2007... so i must be having a lucky year this year... haha....

2006-12-31T21:08:00.000+08:00

today is the last day of 2006... tml will be a brand new year ahead...

yr 2006, alot had happen... of course there is gd and bad stuffs... i think more fun and happiness than suay and saddness... this yr i had lost alot of personal thing.... i lost self confident... lost myself.... lost my goals, wat i wan in my life...

just hope that with my nice hairstyle, new bed room arrangement everything will go well in 2007... and i am able to get back wat i lost in 2006.... 16 more days will be my birthday... really hope 2007 will be a happier year....

2006-12-30T09:24:00.000+08:00

haha... it been quite a long while since i last baked cookies... i love baking.... it is so fun.... and u get to eat delicious food after all the hard work... yummy yummy... haha...

my bro asked me ytd wat time i wanted to bake cookies.... i say 8... he was fine with it... then in the end.... he is still slping nw... still say wan to bake cookies....

ahahah.... nv stay by the oven.... my cookies was burnt... sob... my oven is a bit small so have to bake a couple of time before i bake finish.... so now i have to type my entry and bake at the same time.... haha...

just hope it will not get burn again...

maybe i should take some photo of the batch that was burnt... haha....

2006-12-29T12:17:00.000+08:00

just had a conference with ling and willie... willie was asking whether we want to go out anot... stupid la.... cannot decide where to go... haiz... singapore too small liao...

i give them two place they still cannot decide where to go... aiyo... haiz... sian la..... go where???? can anyone tell me...

ling dun feel like going town... so where can we go???? haiz...

now up to willie to decide

liao... i dun need to headache.... haha....

2006-12-27T18:10:00.000+08:00

i will be using my other blog more... cos i found some interesting article that i like over the other blog... so it will make it easier for me to use that blog... so wan to noe more abt wat going on around me... go to my other blog ba... http://www.wretch.cc/blog/crypiggy

2006-12-27T14:37:00.000+08:00

戴或带都不代表。。。

戴着你送我的物品，

不代表我对你还在思念。

带着我对你的回忆，

不代表我对你还有依恋。

我只是想提醒自己我已和你说了再见。

2006-12-27T14:35:00.000+08:00

放错了的爱情

不知从何时开始，

你已住在我心里。

对你的思念有增无减。

一开始就放错了的爱情，

要怎么样才能收回。

想遗忘的事却不知怎么了，

越来越难忘。

曾以为我们会一起走到世界的尽头，

但没想到我们却在爱情的迷宫里走失。

没有你参与的未来

我不敢想象。

如今和你曾拥有的美丽时光，

只能在梦里出现。

这让我好像永远的沉睡。

我这放错了的爱，

要到什么时候才能对你不再依恋。

能和最爱的你说声再见。

2006-12-26T10:17:00.000+08:00

蔡依林《蜕变》完整FLASH

2006-12-25T15:25:00.000+08:00

today is x'mas.... hope all my friends and family members all had a wonderful days.... everyone do take care of urself..... i just went to 炎亚纶&吴尊's blog to leave them a msg.... they are so so handsome!!!!! haha.... i am abit to crazy liao... anyway the main thing is that i went Arron's blog.... i saw wat he write in his blog.... i like his phrase... i think should be sentences, more appropriate... they are so beautiful and it touches my heart.... i really like them alot hope he come out with more... i nv tot he will write something like that cos he is the youngest in the group so i nv tot he will come out with such touching sentence and writing it so beautiful... i suddenly tot of the word literature.... he wrote it so nice cause me to associate it with literature....

2006-12-25T15:22:00.000+08:00

命中有时终须有，
命中无时莫强求。

不在乎天长地久，
只在乎曾经拥有。

如果我只能在梦里和你相恋，

那么我愿意永远沉睡在这梦境里。

世上最远的距离不是生离死别

而是你就在我身边却不知道我爱你。

我们的距离在怎么靠近

若两颗心不能联接，

那还有什么意义呢？

2006-12-12T14:09:00.000+08:00

stupid friendster... dunnoe what the hell they are doing la... change the editing of the profile from html to css... sian sia.... i dunnoe css lo...

one rss not enough nw come one more css... -_-"... i am so unhappy sia.... cos my other blog and friendster skin like so suck... hate it man....

ytd watch hard candy and when a stanger calls... wao lao... both show so boring man... i watch until i wan to slp sia... aiyo... so terrible... haiz... this mth nth seem to be going rite... AHHHHHHHH... haiz...

anyway hope i can settle my other blog and friendster skin soon...

2006-12-10T16:53:00.000+08:00

my new blog at http://www.wretch.cc/blog/

this is the top part of my blog skin...

this is my profile page... abit small so u can go to the site to see for urself...

this is my photo ablum page.... it had the same background as my guestbook which some ppl called it tagboard... so feel free to leave me a message there...

i still learning how to use the blog so just bear it until i master the script... haha... anyway hope everyone like the skin i had choosen....

2006-12-10T15:25:00.000+08:00

haha... i was so bored then i test out new blog...

come visit my new blog...

http://www.wretch.cc/blog/crypiggy

2006-12-09T10:27:00.000+08:00

ytd went bugis with my mum... bought and eat alot of stuff... and cut my hair... nw look terrible... haha... guess wat is it???

when i first saw it i tot is some fried fries... but after looking at the menu it was fried tofu... haha... if the flour is not too much then will be very nice... due to too much flour, i can onli taste the flour more than the tofu.... it is very crispy.....

my mother order this.. is it the yong dou fu.... it is not the original one i always saw... the one with soup... this is the one with gravy

AAAAAHHHHHHHHHH.... i am very sad.... cos my hair nw very terrible... see the pic below... my birthday coming so i wanted to cut my hair... but i look toot with my current hair.... so terrible... i dun wan go out liao la...

hope my hair faster grow back... ='(

2006-12-07T12:53:00.000+08:00

爱情经纪约里的美句。

爱的表白

用白纸黑字形容花开这一封冬天等你来拆

嘴角边的雪融化的很快很意外

我那些说出去的话是再也白不回来。

2006-12-07T10:03:00.000+08:00

travel with my grp members and me to kanji war memorial

2006-12-05T13:35:00.000+08:00

haha... nth to do so compile all the neoprint i took with ling...

2006-12-05T08:48:00.000+08:00

this was taken quite long ago.... now then i upload.... haha... this was when i went party world with my friends.

me and kel singing... mei yean taking our photo....

from the left is kel, me and mei yean....

mei yean and me!!! ^^

abit dark... this is kel and mei yean...

mei yean and kel singing...

kel and mei yean posing for me to take pic...

2006-12-05T08:33:00.000+08:00

haha... guess whose leg is it...?

choon kiat... my classmate... haha... handsome..? haha... i think he is the onli quite gd looking guy in my class ba...

me wearing my fac's glasses... nice..? i find it abit big... weird... haha...

my classmate... haha...

today last day of school liao... haha... sian lei... no job... still haven find any job sia... sian lei... no money... still have to buy presents... sian...

2006-11-19T15:03:00.000+08:00

nw talking to barret, it make me realise once again that the feeling of loneliness had always been there... lonely not becos i am single... just feel that no one understand me so i felt i am being left alone... even though i have alot of friends but i still feel lonely at times.... my msn contact list have alot of ppl's contact but who is/are the one who noe me well..?

i guess in the past until nw i guess no one really understand me well... cos i dun even understand myself... i dunnoe wat i wan... i dunnoe where to go... completely lost... one after another unhappy happening, i am really lost... my heart had died epecially after i gotten my o lvl result...

我的心死了，我也跟着迷路了。现在我只剩下躯壳。一个没了灵魂的躯壳。曾经一时，我的心再度活了起来。但很快就死了。它将永远沉睡下去，再也没有苏醒的一天。

i really wish someone will understand me... whether is a gal friend or a guy friend... i just dun like the feeling of loneliness... in the past, i belive i am fine being alone... i dun need any friends... i am capable of doing anything without anyone help.... knowing josephine and yueling, especially ling had change my thinking... i think ling is the only one close to knowing the true me ba... sometime she understand me more than i noe abt myself...

when ppl grow up they will tend to think better and have to think deeper... i think i am think too deep liao ba... always aiming for perfect... nothing less than a perfect... that is y i like philosophy stuff... suddenly i rmb something my ss teacher in sec sch told me.... i was telling him something i read from a book: what u choose depend on who u r, who u r depend on wat u choose... i think it was quite true but he said it is experince that depend who u r and who u r depend on what experince u had gone through...i think that is even more suitable to say abt one's self than what i had read from the book... i had always rmb what he said even since then...

at some point in time i wish to go back to the past to change who i am today... i dun like who i am now but there is nth i can do to change.... cos of some experince i had gone through.... it is not sometime u wan to change and it can be changed... like being a crybaby... i told myself endless time... promise myself endless time not to cry anymore... but in the end i still cry... there is alot of things that is beyond human control and hard to change.... all this really matches wat my ss teacher had told me....

haha... i was talking abt feeling lonely de... suddenly talk abt other things... haha... die liao la... my mind is thinking deeper and deeper liao... haiz... sometime i am really lost and lonely i will wish that i will be granted a long slp.... i wished for the long slp but i have no gut to grant myself that... haiz...

i had been down this few days... just hope everything will be better from nw...

nice clothes on the web

2006-11-19T09:28:00.000+08:00

nice dress??? this look very mature and sweet... haha...

this dress will make less mature ba... haha... i dun usually like green clothes but this one is quite nice...

this look like something cai jing in the princess hour will wear de...

my favourite dress... sian.. no work so cannot buy this dress... this dress is so cheap lo... $24 plus onli... cant rmb is it $24.90 liao... haha... sian... so sad... must faster go find a job so that i can buy anything i wan...

this goes well with a jean jacket... i had one jean jacket but there is no clothes for me to match... so i hope to get one when i had money.... ^^

i like the whole image of this dress...

nice accessories i see on website

2006-11-19T08:12:00.000+08:00

saw this necklace when i was looking around on the web... look quite elegance and sort of formal. i quite like the desidn of it...

i like this necklace alot... cos it is very unique... not like other necklace it needed to hook so that i wont drop... this doesnt need a hook... it look so nice on lu... i dunnoe how it will look on me... i found this at a taiwan website... sian... dunnoe singapore have it anot...

angel necklace!!! look so cute... but i dun like the ring... it will be better without the ring... ^^

clover bracelet... i always wanted to have a clover item... as it is said that if u are able to find a clover u will be blessed with good luck... i think i am always very suay de so really need one to bless me... haha...

playing mahjiong at rex's hostel

2006-11-18T20:59:00.000+08:00

bored of playing mahjiong in my com so play it for real.... carrie, jason rex and me playing at rex's hostel. haha... quite happy to play... rex is our teacher... haha...

classmate n me at cafe 155

2006-11-18T20:45:00.000+08:00

from left to right is cristal, mei yean, shu hui, kel, mei jing, me and carrie. taken when we are having our first breakout at the cafe 155. haha... i forget is it really cafe 155... srry poor memory ... but the figure sound familiar...

classmate n me near sch enterance

2006-11-18T20:14:00.000+08:00

from left to right is me, karen, cristal, kel ,mei yean and carrie.

i think we look so stupid to be taking photo in our school especially near the enterance of the school.

this pic abit hard to see cos we wan to have the head of the giraffe in the pic too.

my art work

2006-10-19T21:53:00.000+08:00

I make de... nice ma???

i was so wu liao so make and see nice anot...

abt me during sec sem

2006-10-18T21:57:00.000+08:00

starting of this semseter i had been very slack... so sian... all the problems are so hard... thus i dun feel like doing... haiz... lucky i still can maintain my grade at b...

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH...... i am sick.... stupid haze... make me sick... haiz... *cough*... my health very poor already... due to the haze now is worst... i had been absent from lesson for quite a few days... die liao la... not even half of the semseter, i had almost used up the lessons i can skip...

sian.... really feel like killing myself... my life is in a mess... haiz... so many problems... life is so meaningless... haiz... all in the past that seems important aren't now.... family, life and study are not going rite.... haiz... what can i do.... really very sian.... when will i be able to get enough courage to end myself...? so tired... haiz....

2006-10-13T16:26:00.000+08:00

all this photo are taken today at vivo city...

pics of xiu hui n me at 3rd floor of vivo city

pics at 1st floor of vivo city near godiva

pic of me at 3rd floor of vivo city

pics at 1st floor of vivo city

taken at 1st floor of vivo city

dun mistaken it as a pic of a beach... pics are scenary of vivo city 3rd floor... more pics of vivo city 3rd floor...

vivo city main enterance....

pic of sentosa island....

what a wonderful day... must go again and taken more photo... really enjoy myself...

2006-09-27T21:11:00.000+08:00

after today i start school one week liao... sian... all my fac expect culture de, suck man... all so strict... science one is blur... AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! rest of my 15 problems will be a misery... haiz... suay sia... culture fac is quite good but his rj is very hard sia... like today he ask how can we tell the different between racial tolerance and racial acceptance... wow... very "nice" sia.... really dunnoe what to write... haiz... fail liao la... this semester if i still can pass really a miracle....

most of the problems are so hard... my kor say what we are learning like math is what they learn when they are in yr 2.... oh mine... 1st week already so hard... die liao la... more and more i dun feel like going to school liao... go school so tong ku... haiz...

getting to noe them better they are quite ok ppl... i am quite close to some of them cos we are in the same grp for some of the module so get to noe them better... most of the time my grp memeber are gals... today my grp got one guy and finally all 5 of us are present... cos most of the time one will be missing in action... haha... today my grp that guy is called choon kiat... he is damn quiet la... OMG... cannot stand it sia... the entire 1st meeting he did not spoke a word... he is like in his own world when we are discusion he was like not paying attention... but as time goes by i started to interact with him first la cos really cannot stand it especially he is sitting infront of me... we get to noe y he was so quite... we are surprise to see him smile... haha...

haha... just realise i had not written what is my 1st semester garde.... haha... i was quite happy with the grade even though my GPA is very low... haiz... all my grades are B expect for science i got C+... GPA 2.9plus... cant rmb the actual figure... haha...

oh yeah... this morning i dreamt abt my primary school classmate... so strange... i dunnoe y i dreamt abt him sia... so long ago memory... haha...

2006-09-23T10:20:00.000+08:00

school started on thursday... a new semester in a new enivornment... my class is now in w24f same block and level as adrian... so we say must help each other ta bao food since so near to each other liao... haha....

my new classmates was ok... i get to know half of the class... so i think they are quite friendly and easy to get along... but i still prefer my old classmates... they are more friendly and helpful...

ytd i had science... wao lao... it is so chim man.... i dunnoe what is going on... i miss erping n jason sia.... cos their science is very gd.... they always help others even though we are not in the same group... but in my new class everyone do their own things... there is not much interaction between groups... all talk amoung their group...

haiz... so boring.... no motivation to go to school...

sian lo.... monday mathematic and computing... nv in my life i hate to attend maths lesson so much... but no choice... have to face the fact... but one lucky thing is that i dun have to see chua yiwen anymore.... haha.... yeah....

mcken so lucky.... get to have kumar again.... sian lo.... cannot go causeway eat liao then come back liao.... when kumar was teaching us congitive and problem solving, becos there is no second meeting.... sing hui, xiu hui, joey and me always take taxi go causeway... eat liao then take taxi back.... and we always get to dismiss early.... very very early.... very gd lo kumar.... miss him sia... he onli teach two class... haiz...

hope everything in my life will be better....

2006-09-13T21:30:00.000+08:00

I did the cross stitching design... nice???

all the picture are taken using my new phone... clear???

2006-09-05T09:23:00.000+08:00

srry yun jun kor... i was very busy so i drag until nw then write wat i promises u... haha... peiseh...

my yun jun kor really very smart... the first time i was in the same grp as him was in the enterprise module... he is full of ideas... but he was unable to explain himself clearly... even the fac also noe that i am yun jun's bridge... always help him to explain his ideas to the other team members... i really enjoy being the same grp as him... he is friendly, easy to get along, care and concern for the others.... i am very glad tohave this brother... haha...

hope he find his new bridge in his new class... haha...

everyone take care n keep in touch... miss u all...

haiz... my grandfather in hospital for so long liao... dunnoe when he can be discharge... he is much better liao... he can walk liao... he eat alot liao... i am very happy for him... really hope he can discharge soon... ytd he change hospital liao... hope he like the new envoirment... ^^

haha... i change hp last sat.... yeah... so happy... even though is not the model i always wanted but the model nw i am using is not bad quite nice... haha... i bought this hp sony ericsson k610i... it got black, red and white... i took the white one cos it match very well with the button lights... the button light is blue... and white one is limited edition... so the more reason i should get it... just hope i wont dirty it... this is a 3G phone... but i onli have a few friend having 3G phone... so the function is not much of a use la... haha... when i bought home the phone... i wasnt able to use the usb connection, connect it to my phone... i dunnoe wat's wrong... lucky the next day i can connect liao... typing the message was not mush of a problem for me as i had used other brand handphone beside nokia... i really nv tot i will change to sony ericsson... i had been using nokia for a very long time...

haha.... hope this time i can take very good care of my phone....

2006-08-15T20:45:00.000+08:00

here are some neo print my best friend, Yue Ling and me taken... taken on 8/8/06

2006-08-13T11:08:00.000+08:00

two week since i last wrote my entries...

last thursday and friday my laptop had some problems so i went to It helpdesk. i was served by a quite looking guy... so i guess i can count myelf quite lucky... i went there with Sing Hui and Mabel mama on thursday... as we were at the same counter so we chat about whether the guy is good looking anot... nothing to do... have to wait for my com being repaired so we chit chat... haha... that day i spent most of my time at the IT helpdesk slacking... not that i wish to slack but no choice, com down... lucky thursday is problem solving so it is ok to slack as the module is the easiest... but i feel bad to my teammates...

Friday, my laptop had the same problem... i went IT helpdesk... This time i went there with Mabel mama and some gobster family members.... the rest of them went there just to accompany us... the quite looking guy served me again... it is like everytime i went IT helpdesk, he will serve me... when i walk over to the counter he say:" you again".... haha... i was thinking in my heart that ya me again... laptop spoil again, suay sia... after that he indirectly say he rmb me... when my com is ok he asked for my student ID is it....???? i say ya.... how he noe??? i say that he got good memory.... he just laughed and replied that he saw my ID when he was fixing my com... i thank him and then when off... after that Mabel mama told me that his name was called wee chong yee... haha... the 1st time i went IT helpdesk... i asked his name but then i forgotten... haha.... poor memory...

friday i suddenly had this feeling that i had not been to school for quite a long time... tuesday 8/8/06... i had something on so i went off half way... after that i meet up with ling... we went shopping... OMG.... i spent alot of money that day... i keep withdrawing my money... In school i spent $5 as i did not eat breakfast so quite hunry... i met ling and ate our lunch... i ate honeydrew sago, $2 ba or $1.50... cant rmb... haha.... we also took neo print, $4.50 each... then around 3 plus going to 4 we were hungry so i ate a cheesecake $3.80... before we leave i bought a necklace, $38... and ear-rings total $4... i think that one day i spent about $50 plus to $60 ba... li hai rite... spent too much liao la.... must save money liao.... if not not enough to cover my expenses.

thursay i did not went school as my auntie is treating my bro as his birthday is on 9/8... but becos my mother working that day so we had to go on thursday... after eating we went shopping... even though is my bro birthday but he did notbuy anything.... i was the buying... as if it is my birthday... ling happen to be in town and she had no where to go so she joined us while waiting for her mother... ^_^ so happy got a couple of new clothes... lucky my mother help me pay if not die... my bank going to be emptied by me soon... haha...

haha... thank for everyone concern about me...Yun Jun kor thank for concering me... u even read my blog... so touch... haha... well take care everyone... we are changing class soon... hope evryone will be great... all the best... kepp in touch... miss u all....

2006-07-29T10:19:00.000+08:00

like wat my mabel mummy say in the tagboard, it been a month since i last update my blog... everytime i wan to update, something happen or i am busy with something no time to update...

the past few week the problem has been very difficult... i was quite stress up. not sure of wat to do or where to start... problems will be tougher and tougher everyweek... so sian... haiz...

update of my UT grade: science UT1 i got B... predicted grade is B... Maths UT1 is B+ and UT 2 is C+... predicted grade is B... suck VB cos me to get C+.... lucky nv affect my overall grade... problem solving UT1 and 2 i B+... predicted grade is B+... communication UT1 i got B+... UT2 is C... haha... dunnoe y i get C... nvm la... prediceted grade is B+... Enterprise UT1 is B... predicted grade is B.... i think not bad la... all predicted grade is B... haha... have to work hard...

nothing much happen to me this past few week... i had been trying to forget alot of things and trying to find back my real self... it is so hard to find back the real me... i had been through alot it is really hard to be the old me again... i wan to find back my happiness... i wan to be happy everyday... i dun wan to be a crybaby anymore... i had enough of crying...

a few week ago i tell myself not to think abt loverelationship thingy... so the person i like can onli be kept deep inside my heart... i hope i will not going to touch that part again... but sometime i just cant help myself but to think abt him... i think last week ba... i started to force myself to stop thinking cos i had too much misery. i was harsh will i was talking to him... nw he and me had nothing more to say... i think any reason i dun talk to him is because i am scare i heard thing with i am afraid to heard... thus i avoid it...

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I'm not supposed to love you,

I'm not supposed to care,

I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there.

I'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you do,

Sorry, I just couldn’t help myself,

I fallen in love with you.

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I cry for the times that you were almost mine.

I cry for the memories I've left behind.

I cry for the pain, the lost, the old, and the new.

I cry for the times I thought I had you

2006-06-26T18:58:00.000+08:00

finally... yeah... i am back writing my blog liao... it like going to be one month since i last wrote my last enteries... been busy working during my two week hoilday... met alot of nice people like ming fen, steven, razal, jun jie and many more... they are all very funny and nice people... so fun to work with them and really glad to noe them...

last week i had my two more UT2... i think my computing and mathematics cant make it liao la... all so chim... dun understand... =p i got back two of my UT grade... my communication got b+ for UT1... UT2 i had it today... i anyhow do... dunnoe can make it anot la... just hope to pass can liao... my maths UT1 got b+.. my predicted grade for maths and computing is b+... not bad... cos my fac give me alot of c... mine communication is also a b+... quite happy la... but i think UT2 grade will pull my overall grade down.. sian... the rest of the result is still not out yet... so how all i did very well... haha...

ever since after the holiday i had be slacking in class... all my problems are so hard man... dunnoe what the heck is it la... this week better liao... at least i noe what the hell i am doing...

ya... there are some changes to my fac for some module... this changes are not bad la... the fac is quite friendly and are able to help me understand better...

so happy enterprise is going into more accounting stuff... my favourite... hope i can do well and use my knowledge well... haha....

yeah.... at least my this entries is not too sad one... cos some one told me most my entries are very sad... haha...

today xiu hui's birthday... i am here wishing her happy birthday... all the best in everything she do... may all her dreams comes true... stay happy... =)

2006-05-26T20:56:00.000+08:00

my gobster uncle slping in class... haha...

my fake lover,dear and my gobster uncle....

my fake lover and me discussing our problem for the day.

from the left is my gobster uncle, ah ma and me...

my fake lover and me... yeah in the middle is my gobster ah gong... haha...

2006-05-22T20:43:00.000+08:00

today presentation was suck... i miss out one main point... haiz... i think today we too slack liao that's y we did not have time to do our presentation... sian la... suck man... tml basic science cannot slack liao... very depress... i tot i can do well for it... no mood to listen to wat other team's presentation... sian... we just miss out one important point and the whole things is not perfect liao lo...

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH... for the past two lessons, my grp presentation is the best lo. sian lo... this week lidat... haiz... haha... no choice i too ambitious liao la... just nw i ask xiu hui when they present ma... cos they have the point i wanted to add in de... also the one important point me miss out de... jun yun ask the fac if we need to include anot... he say not really need la... cos tat is not he really wan to see... F***... really feel like scolding lo... he tot xiu hui's grp to present it lei... really damn it lo... i feel very sad lo... cos i was the one who decided not to add when i heard tha fac ssy dun need... if my team mate get very low grade, i feel guilty lo... haiz... i should not listen to the fac lo... really... i am stupid la... haiz... ANGRY LA....

WAO LAO... NX WEEK DUN LISTEN TO THE FAC LIAO LA...

SO ANGRY LO... Y I AM SO DUMB....

2006-05-20T15:44:00.000+08:00

this week alot of things happen... We change team mates!!! haha... some module i prefer the pervious group member than the current one... but no matter how i like the previous group, i still have to continue to do my work... i can onli make full use with the ppl i am groped with... even if i am unhappy with the new grouping, i can onli force myself to like it... haha... no choice... have to be same group as them for another 4 weeks or so... haha... lucky for the time being i am ok with the new grouping... haha... this is one of the changes in my life this week la... hope everything will be fine with my new group members....

haha.... another thing that happen and changes in my life for the week is that i got alot of fake family member... some will call it as gobster family la... u can take a look of my gobster family's blog under my link... haha... it's quite fun lo... as it seems like the whole class is a one big family... haha... so united lidat... haha.. i even have a fake lover lo... haha... he is a nice guy la... but i wont fall him de... (this is to tell that someone dun keep saying i miss arh..? or will i miss him..?) thus i wont miss him k!!!

haiz... on tuesday i kanna bully by my fake lover lo... he step on my leg, i did not respond to it... then he keep stepping lo... then i hit him... haha... i found out he scare being tickled... haha... cos he took my phone dun wan to return me so i tickled him... nv tot it will work... haha... yeah... i managed to get back my phone... haha... ya... we change group ma.... then i got two day same group as my fake lover... sure kanna bully again... ='(

most of the time he is very gd la.... on monday i quite sick.... then i wanted to get the biscuit.... he dun like me eat... say i sick cannot eat... then i tickled him and snatch it from him... my poly life is much more enjoyable with my gobster family around... today they go watch movie... i got something on so cannot go... sad lei...
this week i got mathematic and computing UT and communication UT... i think i will do badly for the mathematic and computing de... haha... some qns very hard... nvm la... first UT onli... haiz... even i say so i still dun wan to have bad grade lo... haha... communication was quite easy... haha... hope to do well for it... =)

haha... i forget is monday or sunday la... my fake lover say daron like me... willie also say daron like me... then daron say i like willie... then he also say dun fall for my fake lover... aiyo... i sian diao lo... haiz... wadever la... wadever they like la... -_-"

hope nx week will be much more fun then this week... hope that that someone will not do dangerous thing again and really take care of himself... everytime ask me to take care of myself then he nv take care so not fair lo... and really take for keeping me accompany... hope you really can help me get over my past and forget all the unhappy memories....

2006-05-12T14:50:00.000+08:00

i was so angry ytd... i sort of skip lesson... cos i really cannot take it lo... i was so angry with Jason tat i just left... i was damn angry lo... the acid in my stomach keep increasing... then my gastric is really killing...

everything was fine until he started to getting distracted and keep objecting our ideas.... he is the onli one tat object to it lo... he keep saying he dun understand... we all explain to him liao he still dun understand... say no gd la... he so smart he suggest some idea la... i was so angry, i tot of just leaving but since a few min more will be my 2nd breakout so i went to the toilet to cool myself down... when i came back from the toilet, i saw my grp member just came out of the classroom they say go down eat first... then i nv say anything just went back to the classroom... i throw my bag on the table... then xui hui came me ask me want to go eat ma... then i went with her... on the way xui hui say yun jun was looking at me to figure wat happen to me.. so i tot of sms yun jun and tell him wat happened...

xui hui and me went to had our lunch... we had our food take away... we went back to class to eat... a few minutes later jason came back... he went to yun jun's grp to eat as our grp table is full of things... yun jun noe i was angry so when jason finish his food yun jun tall him to go away and get back to work... but jason came and tell us tat yun jun wan him to go away he dun wan to... so he wan to stay there... need any help he will then come over... wth... it is more like he wan to watch yun jun play cs lo... this really make my blood boil even more lo... i was so angry tat i break down and cry... i went to the staircase there and cry... daron was so nice to call and ask how am i... i cry awhile... onli a few drop each time la... i started to fell unwell... i dun think i cant concentrate anymore in tat condition and i am very mad at jason so i just went off... daron came and keep me accompany for awhile... i stayed in the library as i dun feel like going home...

in the library... i ask xui hui how is the grp... she say jason keep objecting yu xiang... haiz... i really dun dare to imaging how the presentation will be like... around 4 i went to leo to see the grp presentation... the point he objected was in it lo... since he objected dun put la... put his own idea in la... wt... haiz... so angry lei... i hope i wont be working with him anymore... feel like scolding bad word lo... haiz... hope monday lesson will be better....

haha... daron was so gd to keep me accompany after his lesson... when i was in de library he keep pei me chat on msn... i hope i did not cos him any trouble.... haha... also thank to him i got a b for my basic science... finally.... nw i got 4 c... sian... the rest all b... no a... i just had my UT on basic science and Cognitive Processes and Problem Solving... i think my basic science sure get a fail grade de lo... i really dunnoe how to do most of the qns... hope my Cognitive Processes and Problem Solving will get good grade la... not very sure but think can pass la...

hope everything so well....

2006-05-02T20:49:00.002+08:00

today lesson sian as usual... as usual, i am so blur abt it... dunnoe wat he wan... haiz... sian la... getting another c again la... i now got 3 'c' liao... sian lo... suck lei.... haiz... today my first day i bring my lappy to school so i spend most of my morning in the library, getting it configure my lappy.... haha... then i go back class so blur... cos i miss out alot wat the fac said... then once i got back from the library i started using my com transfer music file... dl msn... haha... then the rest of the second period i was chatting listen to music all the way... haha... nv participate in the discussion at all... haha...

sian... today erping singing in class then cause me terrible headache... sian lo... cannot concentrate well.... haiz...

haha... tml math and computing... hmmm... quite looking forward to it lo.... hope it will be fun... haha... me siao liao... keep haha....

hope tat all the ppl i love will be happy...

2006-04-29T10:39:00.000+08:00

this week lessons mostly abt phycis... so boring. even though i quite gd in phycis but still quite hard to do especially the lesson i had ytd... later i got something on so i miss the presentation part... heard from my friends they say the presentation was suck... haha... i was so lucky to miss it... they told me erping and the fac was arguing... haha... i must be very interesting... i dun like the fac cos he give me a grade C... sian lo... i got two C liao... no A... sob... very sad... hope nx week lesson will be better...

Ytd after settle my thingy, i went out szeying, zul and ling... haha... quite fun being together again... i really miss them... cos nw even though i make new friends liao but i noe them for so long liao... they also noe me quite well... some of the thing when i tell them they will understand better... haiz... haha... hope to go out again soon... all of us together again...

haha... ytd went back to school i saw miss tay, mr wong, mdn chok and mr shashi... haha... miss tay still rmb me sia... so shocked and surprised... haha... i was working at isetan during jan... i was working as promoter and on my birthday i saw miss tay... OMG... y i so "lucky"... then i sell the pickles to her... haha... she wear the same clothes to work and when going shopping... haha... she told the other teacher tat i make a gd sales person... haha... a bit peiseh... i tot she will rmb me because i topped for account or as a prefect tat like to ask her qns... haha... nv tot she will rmb me tat way...

haiz... i went back at the wrong time... not much teacher in school and student are having exam so not much student was staying behide... sob... nv get to see how my cousin is doing in school...

nvm hope there will be a nx time...

when i was waiting for train i saw mr shashi and mr wong... mr shashi keep asking me about miss tay... like when i saw miss tay... then i reply saturday... he will the comment tat miss tay like to go shopping during weekend... then he will ask does she wear the same clothe to school and shopping... then i say yes... then he will tell mr wong tat miss tay wear the same to school and shopping... i also ans a few more qns then their train arrived so we say gd bye... ling say tat it is strange tat how our relationship with our teachers changes when we become a tertuary student... it seems tat we are more of a friends then a student-teacher relationship...

haiz... hope everything will be better... happier each day...

~=I am so stupid...=~

2006-04-23T22:01:00.000+08:00

ytd i spend then whole day doing the template... i do until i really can puke blood... it's not easy at all... nw i finally know how to deco liao... haha... i find it okok liao... dun noe miss out wat... just dun seem prefect... haiz... nvm got time edit again until very prefect... sian... tml got school... really dun feel like going lo.... so used being at home...

haiz... friday ling told me tat she and jon broke up ... i just saw my sms then realise she still cant get over it... i really dunnoe how to console her... cos i also cant get over the past... haiz... feel very sad tat i cant help her... i can onli pray to the god and goddess to bring her joy... i really hate being unable to hep... nw we stay in different school, hard for me to talk to her...

maybe this coming week i will skip one day to keep her accompany... hope she will feel better...

haha... today daniel(sotong) create his blog... yeah... i can link him to my blog liao... haha....

[[FiRsT wEeK oF PoLy LiFe]]

2006-04-23T10:44:00.000+08:00

first week of poly life, I find it quite ok... Especially wed and thurs cos it's the easiest... We dun have to do much think.... Even though on wed, we need to crack our brain a lot but because I like math so I find it very enjoyable...

every Monday I will be having Cognitive Processes and Problem Solving... lesson is okok... But I dun really like it as it remind me of ss so make me feel like slping... But I also learn a lot from it like how to analyze problem... Wad are the step taken to come abt the ans...

every Tuesday I will have Communication Practice... It was easy lesson cos u just need to talk but cos we will be given a task to do like my group did the role on being service center... The customer call to ask how to build the product he or she bought... If was very difficult as u onli allow to tell her verbally and coming out with onli 8 to 10 steps... Starting we couldnt came out with 8 steps, we onli have 5 steps... But after we add it some decoration, we finally got 8 step of intruction...

every wednesday i am having Computing and Mathematical... yeah... maths... i like maths so i looking for every wed lesson.... i learn one thing from the math lesson is tat it is easy to solve math qns but give the ans, forming another equation tat have the same as the solved ans is hard... as some of the ans we get after we solved the qns is in decimal point so it's hard to form equation... furthermore, we onli can use limited number of cards to form...

thursay i am having Enterprise Skills ... the first lesson, we are asked to find out more abt ourselves by doing the personality test... lesson was very fun.... we also end lesson quite early... hope nx lesoon will be better...

friday i got basic science... sian... cos the first lesson we are asked to research on blood and ans the qns our teacher asked... i still very blur with it.... haha.... but nvm its over liao... at most i fail the UT onli ma.... haiz... haha....

Hope everyday will get better and better...

(¯`·._.·[hate today!!!!]·._.·´¯)

2006-04-17T17:51:00.000+08:00

ytd i had this strong feeling of uneasy abt today... feeling tat today will be a very bad day for me... i couldnt slp well last nite becos the strong feeling.... it make me feel like skipping school today...

haiz... in the end i still went to school... i been feeling moody since i wake up.... nth cheer me up... the lesson was so boring... haiz... feel like i am attending ss lesson... some more the topic so suck make my mood worst... after 1st meeting i starting to feel unwell... it worsten my mood... i saw adrain during my 1st break... haha... he seem enjoyinging himself... after my 1st break i went back class to have my second lesson... we were asked to fill the FMT( if i rmb correctly.. haha)

it was quite easy to fill up the FMT but the presentation was not easy to do a gd one... haiz... today everything all suck lo... during my lesson i was very hungry even though i eat a bit during my 2nd break but cos i not feeling well i lost my appetite... i think i was too hungry, i couldnt concentrate on the lesson anymore.. totally lost concentration... i think today presentation was not gd... we onli come up with a few idea... not gd enough... after my lesson i am lucky to have willie free to accompany me to the interchange if not i really dunnoe i will faint anot on the way home... when we left the school it suddenly pour heavily... we was all drenched... it make me feel worst than before... haha... really really very lucky lo... got willie around to accompany me.... willie is a hao ren... is a da da da hao ren.. hehe...

this moring when i was having my 1st break Jia Hui sms me ask me y i nv reply his sms... i tot he send to the wrong person but later it was really for me... i find it strange y he ask me y i didnt reply his sms... i not his who wat y must i reply his sms... he so funny... haha... but i just reply him the reason lo... haiz... anyway... he was also very nice being concern abt me... haha...

thnk everyone especially willie n Jia hui....

hao ren hui you hao bao de... haha...

hope tml will be better for me... if not i dun noe how long i can stay alive if this continue...

DUN UNDERSTAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-04-10T16:42:00.000+08:00

i suddenly got a feeling tat i dunnoe my family member enough... they dun understand me at all... we dun talk much to each other... i really dunnoe wat to do... ever since i gotten my o lvl result i have been feeling tired... there are too many thing happening in my family... i cannot take it altogether at such a short time... i think my parents care abt my bro more than me... if he meet with any problem, my parents will help him solve... but me lei... they wont... they always think they can trust me in the things i do so they dun care so much abt me...

haha... i told my mother when i am able to support myself i will leave this house... i had enough of this place... i dun feel i belong here....

when i noe my jae was unsuccessful... i was abit sad.... i tot of wat other school i can get in.... when i told my mother abt my plan she was ok.... but when the day for me to go to the school to appeal she objected... on the day itself.... when i was already waiting for the bus, she told me no!!!! wat the hell she is thinking.... i told her so many times before going to apeal.... she did not say a single thing... i was so angry with it... nowadays she keep scolding me say i nv work hard la.... then did so badly for it.... when i was working hard she did not say anything... but once i did badly she scold until siao.... everytime when i got gd result i tot they will buy me something as a reward or treat me something gd like they promised me.... they didnt keep their promise... i noe they cant afford i dun blame them but not a single praise i received from them... in my past memorise i onli rmb how i was being beaten by my mother because of my result... i work very hard since then in order not to get beaten by my mother... but why is it the more i work hard for it the worst the result is... y??? i dun understand.... it is not tat i didnt put in effort... i noe myself i will not say i work very hard if i onli put in a little effort.... i am very true to myself cos... i reflect on everything i do.... so i really dun get it...

haiz... this friday is gd friday... i dun wish for tat day to come... cos my relative will ask me how was my appeal.... i had enough ppl asking me the same qns.... i dun wan to say anything abt it anymore... my show starting gtg liao...

the song i like

2006-04-08T23:19:00.000+08:00

i like the song:三個夏天... the lyric express my feeling... the singer voice suit the song prefectly... i really like it alot but i couldnt get a copy of it... quite sad...

the song is the main song for an animated story... the story very sad... haha... i cant help to cry... really crybaby lei me... =p

if u wan to listen to part of the song here is the website...
http://cw6.so-net.net.tw/kokoro/srmv.html
hope everyone will like it... i am glad to manage to get hold of the lyric...
here: 三個夏天

詞:吳若權曲:Ashly

打開門讓我走進你的房間卻還有別人在裡面

關了心感情總會慢慢沉澱怎麼也回不到從前

閉上眼以為你會消失不見孤單地度過了幾年

張開眼愛已走遠我們之間又多了另一個夏天

用真心換謊言寧願被自己騙

這個世界能不能夠同時有三個夏天我只能

走到海角天邊等你的決定出現

明確地說你愛我不會改變直到永遠

用真心換謊言讓愛回到原點

整個世界到了最後只剩下一個夏天我陪你

走到海角天邊當淚如潮水湧現

溫柔地說我愛你不會改變直到永遠

海岸線被風吹動相思纏綿重逢是最美的預言

瓶子裡有一封信帶著夢想等待著有情人發現

我和你會再續前緣